Sunday, October 16, 2011

Still going...

I am still adhering to my diet, and I am just not seeing much change.  I nearly had a mental breakdown a few weeks ago.  I was crying, anxious, bitchy as hell... the pressure of needing (wanting?) to lose a certain amount of weight by a deadline is a lot of pressure.  Plus, I am busting my ass at the gym every week: Mon/Wed Boot Camp for 90 minutes, Tues/Thurs Zumba for an hour + strength training.  Boot Camp was kicking my ass; by the third week in, I began to accept Boot Camp and not feel a knot in my stomach on Mondays and Wednesdays.

It's so depressing to be working out a lot and following such a stringent diet while not really losing weight.  I am losing inches and gaining muscle, though.  I can see it in my arms and my butt in particular.  I'm on this damn Belly Fat Cure diet, and my Belly Fat ain't been Cured, I can tell ya that.  I am resigned to the fact that I will always have belly fat.  Always have; always will.  The only Belly Fat Cure I think will work for me is liposuction and a tummy tuck, which isn't an option.  I simply cannot justify such a major surgery for the sake of vanity.

I weigh-in again tomorrow, and I am hoping that I am within sight of my goal (125).

I did finally cancel my Weight Watchers membership, and it felt so liberating! I thought it would make me feel panicked, but instead I felt a huge sense of relief.  Yea!

Just over 2 weeks until we leave for Mexico!!!   We plan to start packing this week...

1 comment:

renae said...

Mexico sounds awesome! You must be totally fit to be able to do 90 minutes of boot camp twice a week.